I went to Walmart this evening and while there I noticed the guy looking at me and he immediately gave me a weird feeling. I acted like I didnt notice and kept shopping. When I came out of the next isle he was standing in the middle of the main isle, obviously waiting for me to come out. He said "Hi, how are you doing?", I said "Fine, thanks" and kept walking. A few more times while I was shopping he kept turning up, every time just walking around, nothing in his hands and not looking at any products.
Eww!
He gave me the creeps enough that I was watching for him when I left and I planned to ask security to walk me out if I saw him near the door. I'm not one to freak out about that kinda stuff or over-react so when I was nervous like that it was strange, and not something I want to do again!
But here I am, home safe and sound with a Hershey melting in my mouth...perfect!
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
I Made It!
I did it! Im so proud of myself. I managed to make it through this vacation without contacting M. During the last few weeks it has been so hard not to. I had to talk myself out of 'just driving by' soooo many times.
It only got worst after my car accident. Family is great but there isnt anything like that 'special' hug that only one person can give you. I kept expecting him to contact me while I was there because usually when Im thinking about him a lot he ends up contacting me...we must still be on the same wave length. But not this time and that was worse (thought its a good thing cause I never could have managed to not talk to him this time).
I get very frustrated with myself that I still feel that pull but there really is no use denying it (though I continue to do so). I really cant imagine ever going back...but like the song says "If I didnt know now what I didnt know then". I may have been living in a dream world but I was much happier in that dream than I am now. Most of the time I manage to pretend like I dont care and that Im not thinking about him but so many things in my life we spent hours talking about. Including my new job that Im getting ready to start...just about every time I put on a pair of scrubs I think about him and his opinion of them (he loved them).
Hopefully now that I have taken the time to blog this I can quit thinking about it and move on.
It only got worst after my car accident. Family is great but there isnt anything like that 'special' hug that only one person can give you. I kept expecting him to contact me while I was there because usually when Im thinking about him a lot he ends up contacting me...we must still be on the same wave length. But not this time and that was worse (thought its a good thing cause I never could have managed to not talk to him this time).
I get very frustrated with myself that I still feel that pull but there really is no use denying it (though I continue to do so). I really cant imagine ever going back...but like the song says "If I didnt know now what I didnt know then". I may have been living in a dream world but I was much happier in that dream than I am now. Most of the time I manage to pretend like I dont care and that Im not thinking about him but so many things in my life we spent hours talking about. Including my new job that Im getting ready to start...just about every time I put on a pair of scrubs I think about him and his opinion of them (he loved them).
Hopefully now that I have taken the time to blog this I can quit thinking about it and move on.
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