Thursday, January 2, 2014

101 in 1001

Start: January 2, 2014
End: September 29, 2016

My goals (in no particular order)
1. Organize hall cabinets
2. Clean out my closet (leaving only things I actually wear)
3. Organize and USE garage cabinets
4. Unpack all moving boxes
5. Hang pictures in hallway
6. Order curtains
7. Pantry organization
8. Take nursing course to bring skills/confidence up
9. Look for new job
10. Reorganize kitchen cupboards
11. Participate in one CF/CRMS activity each year
12. Bring Ty's weight up to the curve
13. First weight goal 145
14. Second weight goal 135
15. Tyler completely off baby sippy
16. Tyler sleeping through the night
17. Seven days of complete meal plans
18. Try one new meal per quarter
19. Take one weekend off per quarter
20. Girls cleaning rooms, 50% of time
21. No eating out for one week
22. No eating out for one month
23. Complete Insanity
24. Teach Kayla how to ride without training wheels
25. Potty train Tyler
26. Teach Tyler his number 1-10
27. Teach Tyler colors
28. Game night one night per month
29. Complete 2013 shutterfly book
30. Complete 2014 shutterfly book
31. Complete 2013 Christmas book
32. Order Zoo book
33. Plan Valentines day 2013.
34. Plan Ty's 2nd birthday
35. Eat clean one week
36. Figure out laundry system
37. Set up play room
38. Juice one week
39. Juice one month
40. Organize house papers
41. Organize Tyler papers
42. Record Tys food one week
43. Record Tys food one month
44. Walk to the park
45. Hang TV on playroom wall
46. Cameras in kids bedrooms
47. Decide if Ty's a lefty
48. Read about lefties
 49. Write 2 blogs per month.
50. One week without TV
51. Finish this list!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Blogging Again?

Looking back at my blog so much has changed. My "nephew" is now my son and the CF (officially CRMS) is now completely my responsibility. I tend to stress myself out worrying endlessly about life and what could possibly happen. I drive myself nuts with it so I must make my friends and family completely insane. I'm considering the possibility that if I blog about it instead I may be able to let some of it go. Plus, blogging is a great way to keep memories alive. Welcome 2014 let's see what it brings.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


Today will forever be the day that I learned my 3 week old nephew has been diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis. I can't explain the feeling I have always had that something was not "right" with him. I had no reason to feel this way but my instincts just would not be quiet. And now to find out that its something life threatening. I'm the type of person who likes to "fix" everything. I want to be right in the middle of it and make sure everything is ok. This is one case where all I can do is stand back and watch, I am completely unable to fix it. All I can do is be there to support my sister through this, from now into the future. The first step is meeting with specialist on Thursday to begin learning how severe his case of CF is and what we can do to give him the best quality of life. One day at a time, one step at a time

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Donald Lee Conway (Death)

**Disclaimer: this blog contains talk of death and dying**

Yesterday at about 130pm my Grandfather (my dad's dad) passed away.

He had been suffering from COPD for many years and in the past few months has had repeated hospitalizations. He has been hospitalized since Monday for respiratory depression. I of course had a cold at the beginning of the week and since he had surgery (thrombolectomy) I was not able to visit until Thursday. When I saw him I knew his time was short. I stay ed with him so that his wife could go home and rest because he needed someone with him as much as possible. While there of course my "nurse" kicked in and I asked if he had an advance directive filled out and found out that he did not. I spoke to my dad about it and found out that he had a DNR filled out but due to surgery they had to throw it out and make another after (which had not been done yet). My dad filled it out right then and my Grandmother signed her portion Friday morning when she came back. I am SO glad I talked to my dad about it because he died about 12 hours after that was signed, and if it had not been signed the nurses would have had to perform CPR which would have just been awful for him.

I feel bad because he was resting fine all day (first time in about 24hrs) since they got his anti-vomiting medication switched. I was freezing in the hospital and whatever they use to clean their linens makes me sneeze so I couldnt even wrap up in a blanket. I decided to go home and grab a sweater and come back before the Dr.s made their rounds. I was gone about 30min and when I got back he was already gone. With my mind I know that people most often wait until their family is out of the room before they pass. I've seen it more than once-but it really doesnt make me feel much better.

The nurses are unable to tell someone over the phone that someone has died so they called my Grandmother and my Dad and told them he took a turn for the worst and for them to come down there. When I arrived back at the hospital one of the nurses down the other hall reached out and rubbed my arm and said "its okay" and I KNEW that was BAD, so I went running down the hall and as I came around the corner I saw his curtain was closed and heard his nurse say "I would like to report a death". She then told me that his heart had just stopped. I called my dad to tell him not to hurry (we have a drive safe thing in my family) that he was already gone, he said he already had a feeling.

When my Grandmother got there she was running down the hall already crying, and then I had to tell her he was already gone. From there things just went downhill. More family arrived and so I had to explain over and over what happened. It was a bit frustrating cause it was all "her" family and they still made me do everything (including talking to all the professions-I had no idea someone (me) had to talk to a coroner after a death). I'm not complaining about that-I just felt like her daughter/sister would have been able to offer more comfort than I was able too.

After they brought in the top dogs were were finally able to convince her that she had to allow them to take him to the Morgue and then went to her home and started looking for paperwork.

Now since yesterday I have been trying to locate where his mother is buried (finally did) and now I'm trying to find out if it is possible to have him buried with her. Hopefully they can figure that out today so that I can start the process of having him moved to that mortuary. On Monday I have to make pension/retirement phone calls because they are closed for the weekend. At this point I have no idea if I need to be making arrangements for a funeral (sounds like he didnt want one) and if not then do we do something grave side?

I have no idea what to do after death...I'm a nurse I deal with what comes BEFORE death (which preferably doesnt occur)...this is a learning experience I really do not want.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Sleep? Who Needs Sleep?

The night before last I hardly slept at all. Maria told me that Josie only woke up once all night (a first for her), but not me I woke up about every hour...ick!

Last night I was exhausted and expected to sleep all night. Too bad my dog had other ideas! She woke up about 2 and wanted out (unusual for her). So I let her out then went back to sleep knowing she would cry at the door for me to let her in. About 15minutes later my phone rang! Of course that scares the crap outta me in the middle of the night. It was my brother (same as my last phone call in the middle of the night), he saw my dog out and was worried something happened to me since I never leave my dog out at night. After I cleared that up (and let the dog back in). I tried sleeping again. Some where around 5 the dog was up AGAIN! I let her out again... and then of course back in. What a night!

And drum roll please!!! Tonight I have Kayla and Josie for the night so there goes that nights sleep...Im crossing my fingers for Saturday night to be good!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Kreativ Blogger Award

I was tagged by Shanda So here goes...

List 7 things you love and then pass the award on to 7 bloggers you love! Be sure to tag them and let them know they've won! You can copy the award and put it on your sidebar to let the whole world know that your KREATIV!

-Red Robin
-freshly vacuumed floors

Bloggers I love

Monday, March 16, 2009

Josie/Nina Time

(relaxing in Nina's bed)

On the mornings that Maria stays over I have been spending the mornings alone with Josie. She seems to wake up about 730, the same time I do. And before she really starts getting excited I snatch her up and take her to my room for some cuddle time while Maria gets some uninterrupted sleep. I love that hour or two early in the morning when I get to snuggle with her.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Mommy Words....

Last night Maria stayed here with the girls. Maria wanted Kayla to do something for her (cant remember what now) and she wasnt moving fast enough for her, so Maria says "Im asking nicely before I yell". I couldnt help but laugh out loud! After I stopped laughing I said "wow you really ARE a mom now!" That was such a hilarious mom thing to say!

Here are a few shots of the day...

(Josie's first silly face)

Saturday, February 28, 2009

February Weight Loss

So the first picture isnt the best (I had to retake it later in the day). But I just wanted to post how proud I am of my weight loss! Today when I was getting dressed for Kayla's BD party I looked at myself and though "wow I really have been losing weight".

Now on to March to keep up (and hopefully speed up) the pace!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Bored BORED Bored

I have a million things I could be/should be doing today but instead here I sit bored outta my mind! Ive checked all my boards a million times, cleaned (though of course there is more I could do), worked out, talked to my friends, check in on my brother (who got bit by a dog), applied for more jobs, caught up on most of my shows and even remembered to keep drinking water.

Seriously, what else is left? I should have made today a Kayla day-then I wouldnt have been bored!